Life
began at 40 when I was in typing class. The goal was to finger a 40-words-a-minute
rhythm, the minimum needed to pass the first semester. Years later I sat in
front of my rugged Underwood, pounding out the succession of short takes
expected from a reporter at the rewrite desk.
Typing
may have been the most useful class I took in public school. It was useful in
English, history, journalism and drama classes, especially in doing homework,
and it raised me from the fast index finger category to touch typing. I could
look at my notes, and didn’t have to look at the keyboard. Thirteen was my
lucky year.
It
was many years before multiple system atrophy started a different rhythm in
those fingers. MSA lives and works in the brain, where it can twitch a finger away
from an intended key, or turn feet loose to slide off a sidewalk or trip on the
invisible. This is the same MSA that short circuits the brain’s wiring system
and routes lots of thoughts to a dead letter orifice.
Many
of us who’ve been diagnosed with MSA, or who are caregivers, trade information
with each other via email. This morning I began writing an email to a friend: I love BBC's offerings during the late
night via Chicago's public broadcast station. They make…
What?
What do they make? The word was suddenly misty, but I wrote down the first word
that came to mind. Anchovy. It couldn’t be anchovy. It didn’t make sense.
Another word popped up, amnesia. No, not amnesia. I worked at it, thinking
about it, and that’s when the notion of “sleepless” came to mind. So I looked
up sleepless in my Merriam-Webster and there it was: insomnia. I’d been trying
to write this: I love BBC's offerings
during the late night via Chicago's public broadcast station. They make
insomnia almost desirable.
You
don’t need a brain disease for that. Anybody can forget a word now and then.
MSA folks just do it more often, shooting mental blanks at a vanishing target.
Nor
do you need a brain warp to believe that there’s a reason for such things as MSA,
beginning with the acquiescence of the Eternal, James Moffatt’s favored name for God in his translation
of the Bible. Maybe you prefer God, or Divine Mind or even Higher Power or
something else that evokes the creative energy of loving, unseen parents.
Sometimes it takes a lifetime to name God. Some never speak the holy name.
No
matter how deserved a punishment might be, sickness is not a punishment. If
people were born so they can be tormented, with agents counterfeiting the ID of
angels and a favored saint standing guard at the pearly gates of Guantanamo, the
creator would need prayers for healing. We trust that human intelligence will
lead to cures for MSA and other incurable diseases of this century, just as
other cures have been celebrated in the past. The miracles come after mind and
brain get together.
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